The Written Words

Handwritten letter by terriwilling
Handwritten letter, a photo by terriwilling on Flickr.

I spent my day handwriting notes for a funeral I need to attend this weekend in Hilo. It felt nice to actually write these thoughts out on the pretty textured paper and I feel that my emotion can be better conveyed with my writing instead of being typed out. And seeing as I’m not the greatest at articulating my thought into the spoken word, I decided to use the written word…

11. May 2012 by terri
Categories: uncategorized |

I got to meet…

…Meiko!

Singer/Songwriter Meiko came to Hawaii for a one night gig at the Turtle Bay Resort on Saturday night. My fiancé and I have been fans of hers for awhile and what was interesting was that we discovered her music separately. We didn’t even know about our mutual interest in her music when one day in 2009 we spotted a poster at the local Zippy’s for her concert…that was happening that night in town. We were bummed to find out that we missed it, but also surprised to find that we were both interested in going to her concert. We then made a pact that we would go and see her if she ever came back to Hawaii….

True to our word, I bought the tickets for the April 21st show as soon as I heard about it happening. I had been looking forward to it ever since.

I’m happy to say that the performance was amazing! It was worth all the waiting…(waiting for the doors to open, waiting for the opening act to start, waiting for the opening act to end after 40 minutes, and waiting another 20 minutes for Meiko to start…) As soon as she got up and played “Piano Song,” I was immediately swept away by her talent and her presence.

She was on for a little over an hour, which just went by way too quickly playing most of the songs from her eponymous debut album and some from her upcoming album. The venue at Surfer, The Bar at the Turtle Bay Resort was a great intimate setting for hearing her voice live and her playing her red guitar.

After the show, she took the time to meet and greet everyone who stood in line to get her autograph. I was floored by how down to earth she was…

Cheers to a great night!

23. April 2012 by terri
Categories: in hawaii, tunes |

Hapalua Half Marathon Recap – 13.1 Miles again?

Yesterday, I had the pleasure (and now pain) of taking part in the Inaugural Hapalua Half Marathon. This event was amazing and I greatly appreciated all the work done by the organizers and volunteers in making this happen.

For my performance, I had very low expectations that morning. When I woke up at 4am that morning, I was just glad to be on my way to do it as the weather had cleared up after a whole week of stormy ugliness and I had only recently recovered from an unexpected medical setback just a week earlier. What really motivated me to get out of bed and do the half marathon was the fact that this was the inaugural year for this event and I didn’t want to miss the chance of doing this route. For me, road races are worth the price of admission because you get to run on the road, and to be able to run through Waikiki and on Ala Moana Blvd, which I had never done before in previous road races, was an ultimate treat.


Hapalua Half Marathon Starting Line

The race started at 6:00am at the Duke Kahanamoku Statue on Kalakaua Avenue. I was lucky to have Hunny drive me to Waikiki so that I didn’t have to stress over parking (though they did offer a shuttle service from Kapiolani Community College about a mile away.) It was exciting to see all of Kalakaua shut down for this event (though I felt bad for the hotel occupants nearby. All this commotion going on and the sun wasn’t even up!) It was also exciting to see the turnout of people as well. You see people who are very seasoned runners, and among them, you also see people who are just there to have fun and participate. It’s a great mix to have at this kind of event.

Hapalua Half Marathon Start Line

After the 12 Elite Women had their 18 minute head start and the 12 Elite Men Runners had their 9 minute head start, the rest of us (including 2 Honolulu Marathon champions from Kenya) set off from the start line. I set the timer on my watch as I crossed the start line and then started my Nike+. A song started to play from my playlist, and while it’s always random, the song turned out to be very befitting. It was “Runnin’ Down a Dream” by Tom Petty, and with the percussion beating through me and the energy around me, I was propelled to go.

“I felt so good, like anything was possible…” as the song goes. I was running with the pack for the first 2 miles or so, definitely tuning my pace to several people at different times in the crowd. With all this energy in me and around me and having gone beyond my low expectations of showing up, I now wanted to go for a PR…

This was my second half marathon; my first was just last May when I completed the Hibiscus Half Marathon in 2 hours 51 minutes. I remember being motivated by the mere idea of just finishing it within the allotted time. Having reached that milestone, I felt that I had to take this opportunity to reach another one.

Unfortunately, it wasn’t meant to be. Right before I hit mile three, my stomach started to hurt. Though I had clearance from my doctor days before, I myself should have known this was going to happen. Now, barely a fourth of the way into the race, I wondered if I could even finish as this sharp pain lingered in my tummy.

Walk it off… Shake it off, I told myself. I took solace in the fact that the pain didn’t have me keeling to my knees and that I could continue to walk, but I was so disappointed to feel my pace slip further and further away. I kept walking and walking and I realized if I have the endurance to walk, I can gather the endurance to jog. An amazing thing happened then; the pain started to go away as I jogged more and more.

Soon enough, the pain in my stomach was completely gone, perhaps suppressed entirely by my will but now no longer an issue as I proceeded through the race. I was able to go through miles 4 and 5 by jogging with the occasional walk to catch my breath. I appreciated the frequency of hydration stations, and was grateful that I didn’t need a bathroom break which didn’t present itself until mile 4 or so.

By mile 7 as we were headed back to Waikiki thru Ala Moana, the initial pack I was in was long gone, and while I can blame part of that on my stomachache that last for a good mile, it came down to downright fatigue; I couldn’t keep up with them and that was expected. However, I was still on pace to reach a PR time even as I kept walking more and more throughout my “run.”

Hapalua Half Marathon, Diamond Head Bound of Kalakaua Avenue

When I approached Kapiolani Park from Waikiki, I saw the finish line and then I looked at Diamond Head that loomed above it. Knowing that I had to go around it with another 4 miles to go, it made the view of the finish line seem like a big tease, but then of course, I am always one to peek in the back of a book, or read the ending to a movie before watching it; visualizing the end should make the journey easier, right?

But then came Monsarrat Ave, something I enjoy jogging on a regular basis. The reason that I enjoy jogging this is because I’m usually going down it and today, I had to climb up it. Driving on Monsarrat toward Kahala doesn’t feel like any kind of climb, but when you’re on foot and going against the wind, it indeed felt like a climb. More and more of my pace was lost, and the finish line felt further away. (I even managed a live update via Twitter with nothing else to do but walk up against the wind.)

Knowing that we were going up Monsarrat, I anticipated going down Diamond Head Road heading back to Kapiolani Park, tailwind and all, but by then, fatigue was REALLY starting to set in. I had fits of jogging, but I couldn’t sustain for long. Fatigue had indeed set in, but looking back, that was far better than the uncertainty that the stomachache had given me.

Any jogging I did do beyond Monsarrat at around mile 9 or 10 was to motivate me to just get to the finish line faster. For most of the race, I had strived to shave more than a few minutes off of my last Half Marathon time, but at this point, I was hoping to at least match it within a few minutes. As I approached mile marker 12, I looked at my watch to find that there was no way I was going to reach a PR time. And though that was disappointing, I delighted in the fact that I was going to reach that finish line and under 3 hours.

That last stretch is always the longest… going from tip of Kapiolani Park to the finish line. I’d experienced it two times before with two other road races I had done, so I expected not to see the finish line right away. It was still frustrating, though. Despite the fatigue I was battling, I pushed my legs to run in that direction, just to catch sight of that finish line.

As with various places throughout the route, there were people on the sidelines cheering us on near the finish line. That’s another thing I love about road races: complete strangers cheering you on with a look of awe for your accomplishment. If someone offers to give a high five, I’m drawn to it like a moth to a flame with my own hi-five, sweaty hand and all. Among those cheering us on near the finish line, there was Hunny, with camera in hand and a smile on his face. I was happy to see him!


Off I go!

To the finish!

I stomped my foot onto that finishing mat and was immediately rewarded with a medal. My watch said I finished it in 2h 54m, which was about 3 minutes longer than my Hibiscus Half Marathon finish. A little piece of me was disappointed, sure, but I had to remind myself that this was my SECOND half marathon and that I did it. To be under 3 hours was respectable enough…right?


All this for a medal

Perhaps the most disappointing thing is that “official” finish time was the clock time and not the chip time. So while my watch said I did it in 2h 54m, my finisher time is 2h 55m 41s, meaning the minute+ it took for me to get to the start line was part of that finish time. It’s my hope that they’ll retract that. I take some solace in the fact that I screen shotted the preliminary results…


Finish Time!

Knowing that I could have done better is going to be what fuels me to do this again next year and with better preparation. For as long as my two legs (and other body parts) will let me, I hope to do this every year. This first Hapalua Half Marathon was very well organized with police support, water stations, and the amenities that awaited us at the park (there was shave ice and malasadas in addition to the banana that I partook in.) I have a few criticisms such as not staggering us by pace, not having bathrooms until after 4 miles (which thankfully didn’t impact me), and not listing our chip time instead of gun time. For a first time event, they did a GREAT job. I can definitely see this as the start of a great tradition in Hawaii.

My legs are hurting, but I am loving it. My next race is another half marathon in May… I hope I’ll be ready!

(Update: The finisher’s time was indeed amended to reflect chip time – 2h54m29s. It’s just a little over a minute, but it makes a BIG difference to me! – 03/13/2012)

12. March 2012 by terri
Categories: run |

Managing the To-Dones for 2012

Managing the To-Dones for 2012 by terriwilling
Managing the To-Dones for 2012, a photo by terriwilling on Flickr.

With the latter part of my 2011 being a bust, I am welcoming 2012 with open arms and with the resolve that I’m going to look back on 2012 and say that it was an awesome year.

I first had written a “to do” list: a set of New Year’s resolutions, if you will. Then I realized, this probably won’t get me where I need to be. Though a to do list can be a good productivity tool, especially in the workplace, I find having empty checkboxes to fill doesn’t really motivate me to do the tasks noted next to them. And when I see the empty checkboxes that result from my inability to meet the expectations that I have set, it gives me this sense of failure, and I am further de-motivated.

What does motivate me is seeing in retrospect things that I have done or have observed. It gives me the feeling of “Wow, I can do this…because I had been doing it before.” I have known this for some time as I have been actively tweeting for the sake of keeping an archive of all of it.

So instead of doing this only in tweets (which are open to the whole wide world), I’ve decided to formulate a way to have a way of noting all the things I do, keeping in mind my endearment for writing things out as well as using databases and technology.

In the shot:
-My MacBook Air showing Bento 4
-My 2012 Weekly Moleskine for me to recollect my feelings of the day
-TWO 2012 Daily Moleskine Diaries: one to note mundane details about my day, another for a 365 Gratitude project I’m starting
-My iPhone 4S with various apps, including Bento, My Fitness Pal, and ScatterBrain

As I utilize and tweak my “system” further, I’ll get to the decision on posting more details about how I have everything working together. Doing this visual for now, which was posted at a low resolution (and looks downright awful.)

Oh, and yes, I do keep a “To Do” List: a disposable post-it note in my Moleskine.

02. January 2012 by terri
Categories: bunbougu, digital life, moleskine, watashi |

Pen Review: Sakura Sumo Grip II Gel 05

Pen Review: Sumo Grip II Gel 05 by terriwilling
Pen Review: Sumo Grip II Gel 05, a photo by terriwilling on Flickr.

Copping out again by using a picture of something I wrote to be a blog post.

I decided to do another pen review. It’s very rare for me to find a pen at my local drugstore that that suits my discriminating taste. It was quite a delight to come across the Sumo Grip II Pen. I was never impressed with the Sumo Grip line of pens, but the Sumo Grip II is quite exceptional with its gel ink and finer point (05, which translates to 0.45mm).

When I got to use it, the pen turned out to be an even bigger pleasant surprise. Though it’s not perfect, it’s quite good with its consistent smooth writing and comfortable barrel.

It’s great to have another pen to add to the “good” collection!

28. December 2011 by terri
Categories: bunbougu |

The “List” for 2012

The "List" for 2012 by terriwilling
The "List" for 2012, a photo by terriwilling on Flickr.

I am normally not for making New Year’s Resolutions but I felt compelled to write down a list of things I had to remind myself of. 2011 had started off really great, but in the latter part of the year, things fell to the wayside. I know that hoping is for the birds and I should actually just make things happen… Being self aware will just have to be the first step I take….

21. December 2011 by terri
Categories: watashi |

Pain for the Pain.

It was earlier this year that I had begun to be bothered by a pain in my left shoulder. It totally hindered my range of motion where I wasn’t able to lift things above my head or even move my arm a certain way without pain. I thought it was just post exercise aches, but when it didn’t go away, I started to become alarmed. Well, I wasn’t alarmed enough to see my rheumatologist right away. After 4 months of bitching and moaning, I finally saw my rheumatologist on my routine check up. He told me that I had tendinitis and that with a steroid shot, I would feel all better. The shot hurt like hell, but made the tightness in my arm go away.

I should have known that it was not to last. The pain gradually returned in full force. I awaited my next doctor visit, ready for my next steroid shot. But no…

“I’m sending you to physical therapy instead.”

My reaction to that: What the hell? You can’t just pump me up with drugs?

After my first session yesterday, my fear was realized: the doctor had prescribed pain for the pain. As human beings, our instinct is to avoid pain and discomfort, which explains why I never liked stretching this pain out. I have to learn, however, to “lean into my discomfort” as I have read in so many books lately. Only in taking the discomfort will I be able to cure this pain…

I won’t like it, but I know it will be worth it.

25. October 2011 by terri
Categories: health |

Thank you, Uncle Steve…

Back in January 2006, I had to do a 100+ page group paper on Apple for my senior project for my BBA at UH. Not sure how my group members and I landed on Apple, but looking back on it, it just was meant to be.

Many nights were spent reading about the man who had managed to make iPod a household word, and how he had also been the one to spearhead Pixar to the forefront of Computer Animated Films. Many nights were spent watching Apple Keynotes on YouTube, in awe of the presence of Steve Jobs at the helm of the company through its ups and bringing it back from its downs. And though it was frustrating to write a paper about a company that kept so much information about themselves under wraps, I was so drawn in to how different Apple was, and how Steve made the company what it was in the face of all the naysayers.

In business school, you learn about differentiation strategy. As I was researching about Apple, I found that Apple was beyond a textbook example. That differentiation even became visualized as I was working on my paper that year. I was one of the few in the College of Business that was sporting an Apple laptop that semester.

I never imagined that in the 5 years that followed, I would be on the receiving end of just how big of a deal Steve Jobs was. Enriched in my work experiences and my own personal life, I have been so impacted by the fruits of Steve Jobs vision, perseverance and innovation. That’s all I can say about that, but for any of you who know about me, you definitely know what I mean…

This morning, Steve Jobs passed away. I, along with world, mourn his passing. I know, though, that while we mourn, we also celebrate the impact he has made on all our lives, and how he has affected the future for all time. Collectively, this is much more than a ding in the universe…much, much more.

Rest in Love and in Peace, Uncle Steve…

05. October 2011 by terri
Categories: heart, watashi |

Quest for the Perfect Black Pen

Search for the perfect black pen by terriwilling
Search for the perfect black pen, a photo by terriwilling on Flickr.

I bought several pens from JetPens, giving me the chance to sample more things in my search to find the perfect black pen.

Too tired to type my results. Let me just rank the 5 pens from worst to best.

#5 – Pentel Sliccies 0.4 mm … very disappointing
#4 – Zebra Surari 0.5 mm … I didn’t think this was a ballpoint pen, boo.
#3 – Pilot G-2 0.38 mm … I REALLY want to love this pen, but it just smears way too much
#1 – It’s a Tie: Uni Style Fit 0.38 mm black & Zebra Sarasa Clip 0.4mm … two very good pens!

Zebra Sarasa has the most comfortable feel, while the Uni Style Fit works best with my handwriting with its ultra fine point and smooth feel.

What’s your perfect black pen?

27. September 2011 by terri
Categories: uncategorized |

Cat Naps

Cat Naps by terriwilling
Cat Naps, a photo by terriwilling on Flickr.

I am super loved. Hunny bought this for me “just because.” Yes, cat porn is the way to win and keep my heart.

26. September 2011 by terri
Categories: heart, kawaii, yomimono |

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